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|Monday, June 27th, 2011|
Why is it sooo hard to get thin and stay thin! Argh! Why couldn't I have gotten the good genes!
|Friday, May 6th, 2011|
sometimes I really wonder what love is. If someone tells you they love you but then when you're sick makes you sleep in another room so you won't disturb them, that doesn't really seem like love. I used to think true love would be if you were sick, the person you were with would take care of you, show you kindness, but now I learn that in the real world fairytale dreams don't ever come true. If you are sick you should just deal with it yourself, no one is going to look after you but you. SO I'm going to myself some privet health insurance. Future me, be grateful.
The real world is so grim and gritty. You think love is one thing and that the person you love is going to be the one who will look after you when you are sick, like the line goes " in sickness and in health", so quaint. It really doesn't mean much at all I have found. Things like people being there for you when you need them to be is really just a sham. Learn to be self sufficient in everything not just financially, but emotionally as well. Cause really the only person looking out for you is going to be you.
|Friday, April 15th, 2011|
how on earth do i upload photos.
hmm i will write again later with a step by step guide once i figer it out in case i forget again.
|Wednesday, November 24th, 2010|
Oh oh oh oh, i just tried to join and awesome community. I hope they let me join. Yoneda Kou is so awesome! >_
|Monday, November 8th, 2010|
Here is something for you to think about.
What is love? Is it as grand as we all make out? Is the pain of an unrequited love more painful than a physical pain? Is it worth giving up a great many things for? Is it a completeness? What is the ultimate from of love, compassion or forgiveness? Why do we all search for it? What is it? What are the sensations of it?
Hmmmmmmmmm.................. Current Mood: thoughtful
|Tuesday, November 2nd, 2010|
Just thought i should mark this day down. Have decided to finally start writing down that idea that's been in my head for a while. Hope it comes out right.
what shall I title it? Current Mood: contemplative
|Saturday, October 30th, 2010|
|Hi Me, its me again.
So, I have been thinking more on the whole changing oneself to be something else or to gain something else. Got excellent ideas from Gruelth's post about system upgrade. I think its like the whole process of life is one big change so a person is constantly changing them self anyway.
What if there was a point when a person sits backs and thinks, "ah, this is who i am", and then the changes they make makes them something else, whether its a career or whatever. I don't think its that person anymore, because if they went through making changes and changing them self then they wouldn't be the same person anymore because that person had been upgraded an therefore no longer exists. Maybe.
So that means, if you read this Me, I wont be existing anymore because you will be existing and subsequently I will have been upgraded into you. For some reason this irritates me somewhat because if you turn out to be fail, then the me now will not have gotten any better or more awesome.
I think I may have to think about this more.
If a person changes them self to gain something or someone and then they acquire what it was they wanted, and if they aren't the same person anymore, then in reality someone else got what the other person wanted for the previous persons hard work. I was thinking about that phrase " i think therefore i am"(read it on a wall in the dunny), right so if we are who we think we are and then we change and our way of thinking changes, then don't we become someone else.
I have to think about this some more.
By the way, I hate it when people write things on dunny walls that make my brain hurt rather than make me laugh. I call for more jokes on dunny walls. Current Mood: sad
|Tuesday, September 28th, 2010|
Why is it that people feel the need to change themselves for the people they love? I have pondered this question many times and as i am writing this for my own benefit, say for myself several years down the track i think i should elaborate on the subject with my thinking at this current time. Why do we do it, or why do I do it? So from me to me. Right now i think we change ourselves because we are afraid that the people we love or the people we want to care for us, want something more, something closer to perfect, and we feel we are lacking. So we say we are trying to better our self and change some other aspect of our self. But is it really worth it to change who we are? Yes the things gained are amazing but, were they gained properly. Is changing our self to be something else, and gaining love or respect or recognition, is it cheating? because the person receiveing these things is no longer the same person who wanted it, or asked for it? I will write more on this soon as right now i o not know. Current Mood: contemplative
|Sunday, September 19th, 2010|
|I have changed
Today I read the very first entry I made on this site, the only entry I made on this site. It made me realise something I think I am somewhat sad about. I'm not me anymore. That girl who played soccer and was fearless and confident about herself is no longer. I think if the me of 2006 met the me of 2010 she would be both happy yet disappointed. Happy for things that I've gained yet disappointed that I gave up her to get them. Current Mood: sad